The Last 7 Days = Total Waste

Until this morning, I had not taken a walk or worked out at all since last Wednesday or Thursday. I don't know why I didn't Thursday or Friday, I had a three day weekend Saturday - Monday and I just didn't feel like doing anything, and then Tuesday, my grandpa died, so I had little motivation Tuesday and Wednesday. Thursday, we got a call at 6:30 AM from a friend asking us to take in a feral cat he trapped, so by 7:30 AM we had the fiesty little girl in our bathroom, so I wanted to get home fast after work for that reason. Yesterday I thought it was going to storm, ended up not raining at all, but that was no excuse for me not to go to the gym instead. So today I finally went out and just did it. The weather was beautiful, it was nice and cool under the trees, but I was working so hard that my bra is still wet with sweat.

The other reason this week was a waste is that since last weekend, I have just been eating like crazy. I figured out why yesterday, when I woke up and had "those" cramps for the first time since I was in high school. I've been on Depo-Provera (birth control shot) since I was 18, and I haven't had a true period since. However, when I get close to my 2-week window to get my shot again (every 3 months if you don't know much about it), sometimes I start spotting, sometimes I get really moody/PMS, and this time I cramped and had a bottomless stomach.

My fill is this Wednesday, so I'm hoping to kick my ass back into better habits and try to make it work this time. I weighed myself for the first time since May 1st. Despite all the sabatoging I did this week with no working out and eating, I only gained 3 pounds in 4 weeks. I really should be more upset about gaining, but I have ZERO restriction and I can't feel too bad about it. I know that once I have restriction, I'll drop weight much much easier.

On LBT I joined the Labor Day Challenge - my goal is to be 375 by Labor Day (Sept. 7) - so I need to lose 40 pounds in 14 weeks. If my fill actually works, I think that is totally doable, about 2-3 pounds a week. I really need to kick it up a notch and TRY along with my band. So far I haven't met ANY of my mini-goals and I'd really like to reach this one for once. My next goal is to be under 400 by July 15th or so, when I go to a convention in Baltimore. Again, about 2 pounds a week, so I think I should be able to do this if I try hard enough.