First 5K?!

Nothing much has changed since I posted last. I ate kind of crappy for about a week and I only lost about half a pound, but nothing I'm going to record yet. Thankfully, my fill was over a month ago and my restriction is still going strong. I haven't had much heartburn lately, just a little bit yesterday.

If I could just actually stop eating when my band says I'm full, I'd be dropping weight like crazy. Instead, I have a bad habit of continuing to eat when I feel full, because I know it will push the food down the band and I can eat more. VERY bad habit. I still just can't get over my addiction to food and if something tastes good, I want to keep eating it. A few bites of something good isn't enough yet, though I'm trying to work on it. This morning I actually listened to myself and stopped when my band said I was full, which was about 1/3 of the Jimmy Dean D-Light breakfast sandwich. Normally, I would have went until my 1/2 was gone (which is what I usually eat) but today I just stopped. We'll see if I can carry that philosophy into lunch, where yesterday, I was full after just a few bites, but continued to finish my cup or so of food. And I want to get out of my new afternoon habit of eating SF pudding/yogurt/whatever snack I have a few hours after lunch, not because I'm hungry, but because I know I have it.

I'm also trying to drink more fluids, which is still really hard for me at night at home because I eat dinner then just forget about drinking. If I'm not hungry then I usually don't get thirsty unless I'm doing something physical and not just sitting at the computer. The problem with drinking more fluids is that it actually makes the full feeling go away faster, since it washes out my pouch. I'm trying to find a good balance there.

I still need to at least find a dietitian, if not also a psychologist, but our company insurance is switching over in February so I'm waiting until then, but that's okay, because I don't need a fill yet (and my requirement to get another fill is that I HAVE to see a dietitian).

So anyway, my big news is that I'm going to participate in my first 5K Run/Walk at the Bronx Zoo - and it WILL be a run/walk for me, because I definitely can't run that yet. But the point is that it gives me something to train for, a motivation to start walking again as soon as the weather gets nice. The 5K is on April 24, plenty of time for the weather to come around. My husband is also going to do it with me, which is awesome :) If you're curious about the event, route, etc, here is the website: http://e.wcs.org/site/PageServer?pagename=RFTW_homepage. I'm actually pretty excited. I love the zoo, the event benefits the tigers, and I think this will be really good for me. Wish me luck!

Whew! So Much For Worrying!

The scale didn't move at all last week. I was starting to get really nervous, because everytime I've gotten a fill, I'd lose a few pounds within the first week/week and a half, then I'd either stay there or gain a few back until my next fill. I was so afraid the cycle was back and that I already hit another plateau.

Nope! I got on the scale this morning (fearing the worst - gaining) and I lost 4 more pounds! I'm down to 390 with 54 pounds lost. I have 15 pounds to go by Valentine's Day for the LBT challenge. I'm praying I can do it.

I've been eating more at my nightly dinners than I do any other time of the day. Lately I'd have either half of a Jimmy Dean Delight sandwich (130 calories) or a small yogurt smoothie (140 calories) for breakfast, I pack my own lunches in these little 1-cup Tupperwares, so I really control my portions for lunch - either 1 cup of something, or 1/2 cup of like meat/chicken and 3/4 cup soup, and if I have two things I spread them out about an hour apart, that way if I'm NOT hungry after my first item, I just don't eat the other. If I AM hungry, then at least enough time has passed that I know it's hunger and not just 'shove it down because it's there'. I still haven't been eating a LOT at dinner, but much more than I eat at breakfast or lunch.

At least my plan seems to be working, though. I really want to keep this up!