Post #100

Apparently this is post #100 in my blog. I just happened to see "99 posts" when I was going to add a new entry. So happy 100, I guess!

So far so good with my fill, it was hard to say much about it on liquids and mushies, since those phases aren't a good indication of how my fill level is actually working, unless I can't get liquids down (which I haven't had a problem with yet, ever).

I did liquids Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday, then mushies on Saturday and part of yesterday. I had a Lean Pocket last night, and I just took my time, chewed well, and had no problems. I only had one (usually eat two), and I didn't feel completely satisfied, which makes me start to worry already, but I'm hoping it's just because I didn't eat much yesterday and was hungrier than I thought by the time I ate it. I don't know. A few cheese/pretzel sandwich thingies later and I was full.

I'm started to get really frustrated. It's been over a year now and I still don't have the kind of restriction I really need to lose weight. I'm starting to wonder if having the 14cc band is going to be a problem--I need to do some research on this, but what if the bigger band is just too big and I can never get good restriction because of it? What would have happened if I had a 10cc? What if, as I actually lose a lot of weight, my band can't be tightened anymore and is forever too big? Would I have to have revision surgery for a smaller band? I guess now that it's pretty sure that I have the 14cc band, I'm really doubting the wisdom of my surgeon and hoping it's not going to be a problem in the future. Like I said though, I need to do some research on LBT and see if my concerns are legitimate or if they're completely unfounded.

I went back to buying the frozen diet entrees (Smart Ones this week). Yes, they have about 500-600 mg of sodium, but there are MUCH MUCH worse things I could be eating, and I have a feeling most of the things I could cook myself (without going out of my way with grocery shopping and research) would have more sodium than that. I can't beat them for less than 400 calories, about $2-2.50 a piece, pre-portioned, and no prep time.

I plan to go walking tonight after work, after a few weeks' hiatus. It's supposed to be nice weather all this week except Wednesday, and DH works until 8 or 9 PM most nights this week, so I really have no excuse. I won't be able to go tomorrow because of support group, but if I go at least 3 times between today and Sunday, I'll be happy. Just gotta get back into it.