I did pretty good last week with my diet and food intake. Today, however, I feel like the switch has been turned off again. I'm hungry all the time and it bothers me. I mean, I was hungry last week, but I was able to work through it or ignore it. Right now I'm feeling like my body is saying "C'mon, I've been hungry for too long now, time to take a break from that diet." Then I get mad at my Lap-Band. I was hungry an hour after lunch today. Yes, I have to change the way I eat and the way I think about food, but COME ON, if the Lap-Band was working for me, I wouldn't be hungry so often and I'd feel full off less food! I'm so tired of this battle. Today when I was in the gym, I thought about just stopping. Take a break for a few days. Forget about the diet. Wait until I have some actual restriction before putting so much effort into something that I feel will just fail until I have the right tools working with me. I feel like I'm working out for no good reason right now, it sure as hell isn't showing on the scale.
Tomorrow I'm going to finally make a freaking appointment with one of the NYU doctors. I have a feeling the appointment will be quite a ways away, but I have to take the step. If I could do this on my own, diet and exercise, I wouldn't have had the surgery. And I didn't go through the surgery to fight this without any help.
HOLY MOLY!! I miss you all!!!!
12 years ago
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the lap band doesnt make it easy to lose weight. i used to eat enormous amounts. the band has helped me with that. but if you eat slider foods or things like chips and cookies they go right down. the band takes a lot of work on our part to lose weight there is no way around it. i dare say if i had it to do over i would have considered gastric bypass. but i have the band so i'm working it, but every day is a struggle.
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